the lizzer

eleanor roosevelt had it right about women…”You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do.”

i have gained strength by witnessing the dynamic forces of some exceptional women lately. to endure through the rough patches with the grace of royality and the resolve of keeping those chins from quivering - amazing women surround us all. i send out a giant hug to the women in my life who make me proud to stand tall with them in solidarity.

watched “paths of glory” last night and went through a range of emotions that rivaled the scope of a manic-depressive…only my experience was neatly contained within the timeframe of the movie. perhaps i shouldn’t be so quick to dismiss something just because everyone else loves it (in this case, sitting still long enough to watch a movie).

in other news - everyone should get their hands on a copy of the new elvis costello & allen toussaint collaboration…the river in reverse. this music is the “home grown garden of new orleans” - according to mr. toussaint himself. and is it ever. the cd/dvd collection has become my theme music for everyday. there is a grand song on the dvd that didn’t make the cd “what do you want the girl to do” that i absolutely love. plus, there is a bunch of footage of nola, haunted and lovely as she stands.

***from today’s horoscope for the gemini in all of us***
You have one job on this planet, and that’s to be the best you only you can be.

yes, my desire to create a better quality of life has made the decision for me really. opportunities in the near future and the support system of a stable environment, plus all the glory of being “in charge” and all it took was a bit of ego stroking “you’re my first choice” “you have all the qualities we look for” “people respond well to you…you have a way with them” ahhhhhh, the vanity and self-congratulating that has gone on inside my head can’t be good for business. it is quite possible that i could be swallowing a bucketload of crap. in which case, i’m going to have to start numbing my senses.

for the past three days, i have been weighing possibilities…should i accept an offer for a position that doesn’t seem all the wonderful, but would provide me with a bit more money, more authority, possibly more satisfaction, but also more headache. or should i stay the course and continue to grow in other directions? conflicts, conflicts, conflicts!

whether we decide to stay alito speedo or become the snootches, i must say that the times together are giving me so much pleasure. friends that encourage laughing and story-swapping are simply delightful.

bukowski has been usurped by “scrubs.” after being verbally assaulted during the day, i needed to have some lighthearted humor. and dr. cox does not disappoint. i’ve almost finished the entire third season in two days. escaping reality has become a popular thing to do around here.

working these late nights has been brutal on my body and emotions. i miss seeing my friends, i’ve developed a bit of a cold, and i’m ready for a change. i will have to confess here, it has been nice getting the chance to see my housemates more and spending late nights with mrs. jones. the disconnect has been partially my fault for throwing away my phone, like a genius, and now having to wait until the replacement is delivered. word of advice, verizon has cornered the market on evil capitalism. i wish that working assets had coverage down here in the rural southern areas.

the downside of watching the travel channel is that i am getting verrrrrrry antsy and ready for a change of location. whether for a trip or for good, i know not yet. much more of this feeling isolated from everyone, the more i desire to move away. far, far away.

it fuels the fire and teases inner muses.

but had a blast anyway. spent the day with the jones and reorganized my room. it is now book-lover friendly. all it needs is a giant highbacked chair and i might never leave.

random thoughts floated through my mind this afternoon, mostly having to do with various things i’d like to research. mostly having to due with feminist theories and how in this third wave feminist world, we have a difficult time defining not only ourselves, but how we classify each other.

have had a joyous start to the summer with finding time to read and buying a new book every chance i get. i am attempting to be a one woman crusade to save bookworks. there is a new bookwarehouse opening in our community and i worry that it will drive the local stores out of business. and so, i will use the extra money i make at my corporate who-ha job to buy books.

joining the millions of other folks who blog…just because it sounds like a good idea. actual purpose of this blog is unknown at this time. perhaps, just another way to lose myself in the vast world of da internet. silly as it is, i just wanted to.